Random thoughts on chocolate, battles and...

Can chocolate be used as an effective restraint against violence? As in, "if I don't have chocolate, I'm going to kill someone?" And, if so, would some of this world's problems be solved if we handed out free chocolate on the street corners? Ha ha...just a thought Mandy and I were pondering this morning... Maybe it would only work for women. Jorge added that if "women need chocolate, then men need ice cream." Boy, has he been programmed!!

There's a song that's been running through my head for the last couple of days - The Warrior Is a Child by Twila Paris - it kinda sums up feelings I've been having...

Lately I’ve been winning battles left and right
But even winners can get wounded in the fight.
People say that I’m amazing, strong beyond my years,
But they don’t see inside of me – I’m hiding all the tears.

They don’t know that I go running home when I fall down;
They don’t know who picks me up when no one is around.
I drop my sword and cry for just a while,
Deep inside this armour – the warrior is a child.

Unafraid because His armour is the best,
But even soldiers need a quiet place to rest.
People say that I’m amazing – never face retreat,
But they don’t see the enemies that lay me at His feet.

They don’t know that I go running home when I fall down;
They don’t know who picks me up when no one is around.
I drop my sword and cry for just a while,
Deep inside this armour – the warrior is a child.

Deep inside this armour…
Deep inside this armour…
The warrior is a child.

I wonder if there will ever be a time when I won't feel like a child? Or, am I supposed to feel this way forever? Are we designed that way because we have a heavenly Father and we were created to be in a child/parent relationship with Him? It seems that the time I feel the strongest (in whatever area...) are also the times when I feel most insecure, vulnerable and child-like. Ever have a day when you just want to go home and cry in your Mummy's or Daddy's arms? Just to be a child and feel protected by someone bigger, stronger and wiser? Someone who will take you in their arms and make the world go away? I am so thankful to God that He is there for me at those times (seeing as my Mum and Dad aren't). I know that deep inside me is a child that will always need that.